26 days being a mother

Today is my 26 days being a mother to my baby girl. She is just 26 days old and I am a new mother. I wouldn't know if I have done all the right things because I will only find out when she is older, when she can shout "Mom, you have ruined my life" at my face. Now, I can only feed her, changes her diaper, hold and sing for her and don't think it is easy because is not. Her only way of comunication is by crying and I have been trying to identify her crying for food or crying because her diaper need to be changed. Sometimes, she cries so that I would pick her up and cudle her.

All these years, my husband and I enjoyed each other company, just the two of us. Having a baby changes all our routine and life styles. We are getting less sleep, less outing together, less eating out, less time being together, in short less of everything that we used to have. But is not in a bad way, even we got lesser sleep, we are happy getting up for our baby, we spend more time together at home and spending less time eating out turned out that we can save more for our baby. I thought we will feel the burden of having a child in our life but it turned out that a child is not a burden, is a gift and being a parent is not a burden too, is actually a blessing.

I know being a mother is hard work and I am grateful for having a wonderful mother but by just being 26 days of mom, I came to understand more. A daughter can say many times of thanks and buy dozens of carnations to her mother and even she cared for her mother so much, she will have her own life and family soon and she have to work towards her future. Her love would not be greater than her mother's love to her because a mother's future is the well being of her daugther and a mother will work towards her child's future, not her own. So, for me unconditional love does not refer to love with your soul mate, boyfriends or husbands. Unconditional love for me is a mother's love to her child.